YOU MAKE ME SMILE ;
Sunday, July 02, 2006 @ 3:17 AM
why am i awake at such a ridiculous time?
i cant sleep.
this is bad.
my eye bags are getting more obvious!
as if im not ugly enough already.
i have eye bags to make me look worst!
OK so my previous post, which was like 4 hours ago,
sounded really depressing.
well yeahhhhh. I was really upset about some stupid shit.
and nooooooo.
i didnt cry! i dont cry.
crying is a sign of weakness!
ah what the heck. who am i trying to kid?
i ALMOST cried. ok so im weak.
hooray! so im finally acting like a girl.
thats something to be proud of.
i think im just becoming too sensitive, too emotional.
but i guess my acting skills are pretty good you know. HAHA.
i managed to hide my erh.. true feelings?
so anyways...
i cant change anything.
i dont want to change anything.
i like things the way they are but there are times when i just... SNAP.
ive just got to learn to deal with it, to get used to it.
thats just the way he is.
thanks Sean for listening and being so patient.
i know i whine and complain a lot.
you're one of the bestest friends ive ever had.
oh and im sure everything will turn out just fine for the both of you. = )
so after all the complaining and whining...
im feeling loads better.
ok maybe not a whole lot better.
cuz i still feel like puking.
maybe its cuz i didnt have dinner?
no wait that doesnt make sense now does it?
how can you puke when theres nothing to puke out?
or maybe im just feeling fat today (im in denial for the rest of the year),
and feel like puking out ever ounce of fat on me!
ah. my life sounds sad.